Guy Talk (Ryuu)

[RYKER REESE]

Never really stayed in one place Maybe that's the way it should be Ryker didn't even have a clue right now, what was he supposed to do. He felt that he was trying to get somewhere. Somewhere safe, though did it even matter? Right now he felt it probably didn't. Sighing lightly he reached his hand up to knock on his door. Though it'd probably not end up mattering. What was he supposed to say? He didn't know what to do. Ryker had no idea what his emotions were doing, he felt really weird. And Ryker didn't like it. He could only hope that Ryuu had some advice. But he didn't know what to say either. He felt tired from not sleeping last night. The boy pushed his bangs out of his face and then glanced at the door. His hand touching it for a second then he knocked on it again. Louder this time , hoping that Ryuu would open it. "Ryuu come on...you have to be here. Watch you went out on a date with her.." He huffed, and tried to keep smiling. The smiles were very faint, and he hated it. What was he supposed to do. For this moment he didn't know what would happen if he kept standing here. Ryker didn't move, he could only wait for his cousin to come out. But would he even do that? It did not seem like he would do that. What could he do? He didn't get how Alexei made him feel. That heat in his body, that feeling he had when he went home. He was almost afraid his mother would wake in on him. To see him doing that, it was a bit weird. And honestly he'd rather not deal with it. Sighing lightly again he waited for this guy to open the door. Now if he saw Silvia or someone else he'd feel nervous. He couldn't exactly go and talk about this to anyone else. And he didn't want to go back to work. That would be awkward enough for him. Ryuu would be the only one he would be able to. He waited patiently and growled. Why couldn't he open the door. It wasn't like Ryker had tried to call him. He would not call him before he showed up. What else was he going to do? He kept on waiting for this guy to open the door, and he felt a bit frustrated. Raising his hand to slam it on the door again he stopped. Maybe he was only pushing Ryuu further. Further then he wanted to. At this moment it did feel a bit weird. And yet he wasn't certain how to handle that either. Not right now. His emotions and everything were all out of whack for him. Lack of sleep and everything had bothered him to the point of where he was struggling to keep going right now. It'd probably not end up helping out either. Yet he didn't know what to do. He felt that it'd probably not end up helping. After all of this was really awkward. He waited and wondered what Ryuu would say, yet he also didn't know what to say right now. He felt that things would be seriously weird. And of course he'd rather not dig into the wrong things. If he brought up the stuff that happened at the clinic he wondered how Ryuu would react to it. He hadn't told his parents or anyone else. So he wasn't sure what his cousin would say about it. RYUU YAMAMOTO

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[RYUU YAMAMOTO]

We were the fire on the moonlit skies

It was nice having a day off once in awhile. he'd grown up throwing himself into his training and ihs schoolwork, and rarely had days off to do anything else besides maybe kendo - which he could constitute as training, but nobody had ever really been enough of a challenge for it really to be considered training. Since he had started dating Silvia though, he would take days off once in awhile so he could take her out on nice dates or just spend the day with his mother, or to himself. The latter bit was one of those days. Silvia was at work, and he was taking a comfortably hot shower. Sometimes he took baths on his days off, since they were great on his sore muscles. He'd slept in, which didn't constitute as that late for him, since he was usually up fairly early. Either to grab in some training in the morning, or to make breakfast and coffee for Silvia in the morning before he left for the hospital and she for school.

His mother liked to tell him he was sort of in a 'honeymoon' phase for being engaged, but he preferred thinking that was just how he wanted their marriage to be. He didn't mind taking care of Silvia. Breakfast in bed was nice sometimes, especially when he was so obviously infatuated with the woman. Most people either saw it was absolutely adorable and the rest found it disgustingly delightful. He hoped he'd remain the same even after they were married. Which reminded him, he and Silvia needed to go look at actual wedding rings soon enough. Ryuu had obviously put a lot of thought into their engagement rings, or at least Silvia's. It had been rose gold inlaid with a red diamond. It had been fairly difficult to find a diamond with that natural of color, same with Ryuu's blue diamond engagement ring. Both gems signified their respective flames and Ryuu was definitely proud of himself for them. He could only hope he was as lucky with their actual wedding rings. He didn't really get why there was the engagement ring and then the wedding rings...but that was okay. He'd saved up plenty, especially for the engagement rings. He'd managed to save up more even after buying them because he'd waiting several weeks to find the proper time and place to ask. Nobody had been much help in his search for decent love advice.

Especially his mother. He elected never to go to her for marriage advice again. Although, he had made sure to inform Silvia's grandfather of his intentions to ask her to marry him, much to the older man's delight and had even taken a visit to the grave of Silvia's parents one day. He'd never gotten the chance to meet them since they had died before he could even walk or talk, but his mother had been particularly happy to hear that he'd taken the time to go see their graves, even if it was to awkwardly tell the graves that he was asking their daughter, who had grown up beside him sort of like an older sister, to marry him. Certainly, it would have been plenty more awkward were they still alive.

A soft sigh escaped his lips as he turned off the water only to hear knocking at his front door. Odd. He wasn't really expecting anybody. Silvia didn't usually forget her house keys, either. His mother would call. Reiko didn't come visit him usually, and she might have just punched down his door. He snorted at the thought, but knowing Reiko and her being a bit punch-happy...it wouldn't have surprised him. He knew Michael was still in town...maybe he was coming to visit him? He didn't know why he would...A yawn left his lips as he draped a towel over his shoulders, lazily pulled on some pants and neglecting a shirt, he handed towards the door. "Hold on...hold on..." moving a piece of wet hair, that he hadn't thoroughly dried yet, he peeked out of the peep hole on the door before opening it. "Ryker?" he asked, wondering what brought his cousin to his apartment. Something about him was off, like he was freaking out over something. "Come in, Ryker...is something wrong? Do you want coffee or anything?" he asked, as he started to fully dry to his hair. "Sorry...I'd been in the shower. Sorry if I made you wait."

Tags; Ryker
Word Count; 742
Notes; Ryuu is adorable. No matter what.

BY AERIE OF GANGNAM STYLE

[RYKER REESE]

Never really stayed in one place Maybe that's the way it should be He didn't know what Ryuu was doing but he really did need to talk to him. That was pretty simple on it's own really, however Ryker was not going to get into that. Not for now at the very least. It may be a bit complicated, but he'd learn to keep it to himself. For now at the very least. With a small laugh he only tried to relax the best way he knew how to anyway. He didn't know how to speak to Ryuu about this but he was going to try. Honestly it bothered him, sighing lightly Ryker continued to wait for the door to open. If this door opened Ryker couldn't wait to walk in. He didn't like being outside like this, it was already complicated for him. However he'd rather not dig that up. Since it wasn't likely to do him any good. Ryker had enough issues going through his head. Like how he felt about Alexei, and that whole situation with him. The Spiaggia stuff. This was not something he liked to think about. It bothered him, but he stood at the door waiting for this. He wondered what his cousin was doing. Was he with his girlfriend? That'd be really awkward to deal with at this point. He didn't know what to say. He didn't like it, Ryker hated to feel this feeling in his chest. Then realize that Ryuu might be with her. He did not want to disturb her that was for sure. Ryuu he could disturb but not if his girlfriend was around. He actually felt a bit guilty about doing that to her. However he'd keep his mouth shut about this stuff for now, at least for a little while. He sighed and looked at his cousin with that laugh. "Hey Ryuu! Sorry if I'm bothering you." He didn't like bothering people but he needed to talk to these people. It would not help him otherwise. He already knew that much. But he wondered how Ryuu would react once again to what he said. Things like this were already awkward enough in his own head. Even when Ryuu had opened the door he still felt that he was disturbing him. It didn't make him feel any better at this point. How would it? "C-coffee sure..." He attached to Ryuu even if he was wet and whimpered. He squeaked and instantly pulled back slipping into the house. "U-um sorry...Let's just go inside, and shut the door it must be cold for you." Even if he was already inside the house he was talking about this stuff. It was a bit weird. How was he even supposed to be able to handle this stuff? Right now it'd probably not end up helping matters either. Not at this point anyway. "I can't just see my cousin?" He gave a fake laugh, this wasn't real. He didn't feel a darn thing other then worried. That was all he felt right now, and he wished he would be able to pretend nothing bothered him honestly. He only wanted to get this conversation figured out so that feeling in his chest could go away. RYUU YAMAMOTO

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[RYUU YAMAMOTO]

We were the fire on the moonlit skies

Ryuu shook his head at Ryker's apologize, dismissing it casually. "It's my day off. Not a bother at all," he informed him, blinking slightly at being latched onto. It wasn't a big deal and Ryker was a bit...odd anyway...but he was acting a little bit more odd than usual. Ryuu couldn't help but worry about that. Why /was/ he here? He didn't mind the visit, of course. Ryker was family after all. Related by blood from his father's side, a father he admired. Of course, they'd fallen out of touch a little bit after he had died...but that didn't stop him from actually caring.

Cold? In the middle of the summer? Okay. Well. There was a small breeze and wind and wet didn't actually mix very well. But he wasn't actually cold because he'd been warm from a hot shower. Now that warm feeling was gone though and it probably wouldn't be long before he started to get cold. Closing the door behind them, Ryuu meandered his way into his bedroom first to finish getting dressed, slipping on a cozy t-shirt before heading into the kitchen to start on that bot of coffee. Today was a lazy day, so he was really under dressed in a pair of pajama bottoms and t-shirt. "No. I'm glad that you came to visit...but you're acting weird..." Ryuu admitted, looking back towards Ryker as he motioned him to sit at the table in the eat-in kitchen. "Weirder than usual - no offence or anything," Ryuu amended after a moment. Ryker was a bit weird...and he wasn't really afraid to tell him that. But hey. Lots of people were weird in their own...weird way.

Ryuu recalled that Ryker had always seemed a bit sheltered growing up, which had probably shot off after the death of his uncle mostly...In fact, considering how Ryuu remembered his aunt was, the fact he knew about the mafia in the first place was probably because of her husband and her brother. She probably would have preferred to keep him out of it. And Ryker's dad was well...a Hibari, so he doubted he was a plethora of good advice and probably just told him to do bite something to death...or something. After growing up the best friend of one of the other Hibari grandchildren and being a regular herbivore to him, he really didn't expect much from any of the other ones...besides maybe Ryker. Who seemed to break the mold of regular Hibari. "Girl problems?" he suggested. That was something you didn't go to your mother for...although, Ryuu had asked his for advice when it came to asking Silvia to marry him.

Women knew romantic...but she apparently didn't. Of course. There was always the option if it being guy problems since Ryuu wasn't too sure which way Ryker swung. He didn't have the ability to tell that sometimes...which lead to a lot of awkward things. While Ryuu had never dated another guy or been with one, he wouldn't have had a problem if he had been. He just tended to prefer women...and mostly Silvia. He'd had a few dates and girlfriends in the past, during high school, but he was usually the one who broke it off, usually after the girls started getting jealous of Silvia and demanded to know what kind of relationship they had. He couldn't sort out his feelings, so he usually just ended it there...which might have explained a lot of things during high school. Besides the fact that he also the youngest of his class. Silvia had graduated a couple years before he did, but somehow, all throughout high school, they were still everybody's favorite couple. Besides the people who liked yaoi and just tended to try to pair him off with his best guy friend...or any guy, really. Girls were weird sometimes.

Tags; Ryker
Word Count; 621
Notes; Yay for awkward conversations.

BY AERIE OF GANGNAM STYLE

[RYKER REESE]

Never really stayed in one place Maybe that's the way it should be He still felt bad for bothering Ryuu, since of course his cousin needed to be left alone. Or well given his space. Specially with his girlfriend and everything, of course Ryker didn't want to talk about that. It'd probably bother him at least a little bit. But he kept his mouth shut about that, all the boy did was keep smiling at his cousin. Trying to play the sweet, happy mask that he had. Even if it didn't mean much of anything right now. He barely knew what to say. Trying to voice his emotions or feelings on this situation had never been very easy for him. But of course Ryker planned to try. It'd help his little issues. Like why his face turned bright red around Alexei. It couldn't have been him being trapped in the corner. No he would have kicked him if that was just it. So it had to be something else. Ryker found that he had been lost in his thoughts then quickly tried to shake himself out of that. It wouldn't do him a lot of good to dwell on the smaller things that weren't so important. Feelings needed to be discussed, maybe Ryuu could help explain why he felt this way. "I-I'm sorry. I'll explain why but you are sure we are alone right?" He had to ask as he squirmed. The boy felt that he was blushing again. Though he was pretty sure he didn't even know why. At this moment it felt a bit weird, Like he might have thought over this too much. Coming here was a good idea though no matter how squirmy he felt. "N-Not exactly girl problems...The guy I work for cause he helped me. U-um...something happened. I'm not supposed to blush when a guy pins me in the corner! What does that even mean! Ryuu I'm scared." He whimpered and choked back sobs. This didn't make him feel any better. He was voicing his emotions, honestly it really annoyed him. For now this didn't seem to be any good, what else was he supposed to say. He had voiced his feelings to Ryuu or well maybe it was his confusion instead. His emotions were really starting to bother him. And he knew he didn't like any of it. Ryker wanted to make all of this stop. But like that was even going to work, he did wonder what was even happening with him. After all he had never been given that much luck at this point anyway. He felt so nervous about this. What was he supposed to do. He couldn't entirely make sense of things even if he tried to. It just didn't make a lot of sense. What else was he supposed to think. Ryker had come here to talk about his feelings. But what was he supposed to do. He felt that his brain was aching again. All because of what he was thinking about. RYUU YAMAMOTO

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[RYUU YAMAMOTO]

We were the fire on the moonlit skies

Ryuu couldn't really understand why Ryker seemed so bothered that he was bothering him. It really wasn't a bother, but then again...Ryker seemed off today. Jumpy and all around just off. He couldn't quite place what was wrong though. His head tilted to the side as Ryker went and asked them if they really were alone and Ryuu sighed slightly and nodded his head. "For the next couple of hours, at least..." he stated lightly. He avoided putting in a smart ass comment about the fact that t=he lived in an apartment complex and they had neighbors, so they really weren't alone...but he avoided that. This was obviously important to Ryker.

Not exactly girl problems? But guy problems? And he didn't understand what was going on and why he felt weird about it. All blushing...and wait why is there a guy cornering his cousin in the first place?! He almost totally missed that part over the fact that Tyker was now whimpering and almost crying because of how freaked out he was. Had nobody ever explained the concept of sexual attraction to him? Or just attraction in general. He recalled himself holding back blushes when he was around Silvia before they started dating. If Silvia had ever dated anybody outside of him, he didn't want to ruin that for her with whatever guy she was with noticing and breaking up with her over the fact that neither of them could really place any of their feelings for awhile.

Ryuu leaned back in his chair, breathing out a sigh as he ran his fingers through his wet locks of blue hair. First he would address the part Ryker was freaking about. Then he'd address the fact that somebody was pinning him into a corner. Maybe he'd actually use the training as an assassin Squalo made him do when he was younger - to not waste perfectly good potential - he'd stated. Go kill a guy for messing with his younger cousin...Yeah. He'd do that. He was a doctor, but honestly didn't have a problem if he had to kill somebody for somebody he cared about or for protection. "Firstly...I'll go back to whole cornering thing later..." Ryuu stated carefully, trying to think of where to go. "Blushing and being all embarrassed is a perfectly natural reaction if you're sexually aroused...especially if you're a young adult, a virgin at that...wow this is turning awkward..." he explained, adding the last bit as an afterthought on the matter. Didn't teenagers usually find out about sex through porn or something? He'd never tell Silvia, but he'd dealt with his own feelings for her before they'd dated with things like that. Of course, she probably already knew about that considering that was only natural. Oh god...now he was thinking about how she'd dealt with that stuff. Bad brain. Go away. No wait. Stay, but focus on Ryker!

"And...it's not a big deal if its a guy you have a relationship with or feel that way towards," Ryuu explained as he took a sip of his coffee. "In fact, I sort of swing both ways myself...but of course, I'm more interested in females...if you couldn't tell," Ryuu explained casually, obviously having no qualms with the fact that he was bisexual. He just leaned slightly closer towards females, and Silvia in particular. "He must be your first crush...but what I'm concerned about is...why is he pinning you in corners?! Do I have to kill him for you? Wait...I probably shouldn't threaten the guy you have a thing for with death...I suppose I will if he hurt you..." Ryuu mused, slightly off on his own tangent concerning the matter.

Tags; Ryker
Word Count; 610
Notes; Yay for awkward conversations. Seriously.

BY AERIE OF GANGNAM STYLE

[RYKER REESE]

Never really stayed in one place Maybe that's the way it should be Ryker didn't want to think about this, his life was already quite weird for him. And he did know he did not like any of it. Why would he? So for this moment he felt things weren't going as planned for him. Either way it felt pretty weird. He thought there might be a lot of stress involved and yet there wasn't. Ryker didn't know how to explain Alexei, or how he felt. Since of course he didn't have a clue how he felt right now. Was he even supposed to? For Ryker this whole thing was new and he knew for a fact he did not even like any of it. Why would he. It'd probably only continue to stress him out. Those thoughts of course were not wanted. If he could avoid it then he'd manage to avoid it somehow. Even if part of him figured that he did not want to. Coming to Ryuu might have been a serious bad idea. There would be no going back now though. Since of course things weren't that easy for him. Not like he knew what Ryuu would think about the things he said. Learning his baby cousin had weird feelings for a guy. Or well at least being around a guy. At least he'd be alone for the next couple hours. That made Ryker feel a lot better. Though of course he'd rather keep quiet about that. It'd probably not end up mattering anyway. He felt that his mind was starting to race, which he knew he didn't enjoy. He wanted to make sure that things were left unknown. Though of course he had a feeling this guy might not care. His cousin was probably only going to snap over something. However Alexei was the thing they were talking about now. This was all, he would rather not deal with the negative parts of what was going through his ind right now. It was probably not going to make matters any easier. He had no idea how to explain what he felt. Or what he knew either. Ryker wasn't sure he was gay or straight, he was just there trying to figure things out the only way he knew how to. Ryker hated feeling so squirmy and out of it. Why did he have to feel this way? It was not something he wanted to deal with. Now that he thought about it just how well would it work for him? For all he knew it'd probably get really awkward. Yet he did not wish to deal with that either. He whimpered and tried not to sniffle, but this was already so weird. What else was he supposed to do? He felt that it'd probably not end up getting him anywhere. For all he knew he might do something really stupid. Which could not be too shocking for him. Not right now at least. He was already struggling trying to figure out his own emotions. Even if it'd probably not do him any good. Seriously he felt that it was starting to stress him out slightly. "B-but I can't be attracted to that. I don't really know him that well! I don't know what you are even talking about!? This isn't happening." He kept saying that, but it would probably not do him any good. He would figure this out later regardless. At this point he did not wish to stress it. But too late. Things were already being stressed by him. For that moment he did not like any of it. Why would he? "No no no no! I can't do that, I'm not like that...he's just someone who helped me." He whimpered again and moved to flop down, he couldn't do this anymore. He was already quite stressed out honestly. It felt so annoying. "H-he...I don't know. He just trapped me in the corner, saying I owed him something. And we could end things quickly or something. It's confusing, I don't feel anything...towards him? Or do I? Ryuu it's weird." He whimpered again, this made him feel so uncomfortable. He didn't know what was going to happen. It already felt so weird, and confusing honestly. Though he did not wish to deal with. RYUU YAMAMOTO

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[RYUU YAMAMOTO]

We were the fire on the moonlit skies

Ryuu didn't really know what to tell Ryker in this exact situation. He'd never...well, he'd never had this issue. Even if he had, he didn't have anybody to speak to about it. His mom wasn't the best person to talk about things like that with, his dad was gone and had been for a good...fourteen years now. It was going on fifteen years now. Silvia was female, so it was a lot more awkward to talk about with her when he was young. He'd had a couple people throughout high school that he spoke to and was close to...but he'd never really had to speak with anybody, either.

Ryker wasn't making it any easier to talk to him as he continued to freak out, practically ignoring some of what Ryuu had said about it being normal. He sighed inwardly, realizing that maybe Ryker was afraid of being homosexual...about how people would take it. He knew that it wasn't openly accepted by several people, especially within the mafia and when he was the grandson of a famous person and was partially expected to carry on the bloodline. Ryuu knew too well those pressures, especially now that he was engaged. Eventually, they really would be pushed to have children...although, he knew that whenever they had children was ultimately up to Silvia. But of course, as a doctor, he knew that any form of protection did have its small percentage of not working...It would happen when it happened, he supposed.

"Just because you don't know him that well doesn't mean you can't be attracted to somebody," Ryuu stated after a moment. "I don't really have much room to talk, having pretty much grown up with Silvia there the entire time...but you can still be attracted to people you've just met..." he ran his fingers through his hair lightly, unsure of really what else to be saying. "It could always be just a passing physical attraction more than anything and it'll resolve itself over time..." Ryuu thought about it for a moment, rolling his shoulders in a shrug. "You are eighteen and feelings like that are perfectly normal at awkward times..." He wasn't going to go into detail about how he knew that...but he was eighteen once himself.

Ryuu scowled slightly as Ryker gave his explanation about how he wound up in the corner. "I don't care what he did for you - you don't owe him anything," he stated with an annoyed huff. He didn't like people who demanded to be paid back for anything they did. Sometimes, people should just do things to be nice and not expect anything in return. "Especially not sex or anything or the sort," he seemed obviously annoyed with that particular fact. It wasn't like Ryker could get pregnant or anything because he was a male...but it was the principle of it all! Of course, Ryuu couldn't really say anything about how he had lost his virginity...he'd been drunk and well...it had turned into an awkward night. He barely remembered any of it...so it had definitely been awkward the second time around again with Silvia. "If he tries that again, punch him in the dick or something..." Ryuu muttered crossly. Of course, that was a horrible threat a guy could give another. Because that would hurt. A lot. He sighed, unsure of what else to say about the entire thing. "I'm not really sure what else you say..." he admitted after a moment. "I've never had this sort of conversation before..."

Tags; Ryker
Word Count; 584
Notes; Ryuu has no clue what he's even saying XD

BY AERIE OF GANGNAM STYLE

[RYKER REESE]

Never really stayed in one place Maybe that's the way it should be Ryker wanted these feelings to go away, anything to keep him from feeling this weird. The boy did not like it, knowing he was in some awkward state. Or dealing with some not so great things. It felt so weird. Ryker had that feeling in the pit of his stomach. It was a feeling he truly did hate. Ryker wasn't sure why he had that burning feeling in the pit of his stomach, or why it seemed to keep on getting worse. Emotions were confusing, then he had his family to think about. Yes he was a dork, yes he played around and didn't act serious at all. But he had his reasons for that. No one needed to even know that, if he was smart it'd be alright in every sense of that word. Yet it didn't work. Ryker pushed his hair out of his eyes and looked at Ryuu. He was shaking slightly, it was not that obvious till someone got really close to him. But Ryker's nervous energy had started to peek back through this again. Ryuu had a girlfriend, Ryker had no one but some weird feelings for some guy. Honestly the boy would not understand any of it. How could he? Standing there and waiting for Ryuu to say something sounded like torture. It hurt him more then he'd admit. Almost to his very core. He wanted all those feelings to leave him, but he stopped assuming this would be easy. For him he figured it'd just be one of those sucky things he had to deal with. Even though right now he was quite sure he did not wish to. He did feel that it'd probably not be his best idea, it might only end up causing problems. If Ryuu ever met Alexei he did not see it ending well. Ryker squirmed again as images of being pinned in that corner flicked through his head again. Why did he feel like his body was tensing up all over again. Almost as if he was constantly trapped in that corner. Ryuu was so much better at this, he had a girlfriend. Where Ryker was not sure what he had or what he was. "I-I can't though! being attracted to someone like that, and he's just a guy. It doesn't work!" Ryker was scared, yes for once the hyper kid was scared. Usually he'd be able to ignore his fear. Now however it was not working as well as he wanted it too. But what good would complaining even do. "what do you mean? I can't love a guy...I can't have any feelings for a guy." He whimpered low in his throat, he wanted all of this to stop. Ryker's body felt weird. The boy didn't know what he was supposed to say right now. This was already pretty strange, and he'd have to deal with it somehow. Ryker never wanted to see Alexei again, not right now. Not when he didn't know what his feelings or ideas were about this whole subject. So it didn't matter what he did? But Ryker still felt that he owed him. That he needed to give him something. But sex was not in the cards. Not for Ryker, he didn't even know what he wanted. Testing this theory did not sound very pleasant to him and it never would honestly. Not as he was concerned. Ryker shook his head, he didn't want to punch that. Maybe he'd kick it instead. "M-maybe I could just kick it instead? That sounds like a better plan, I don't have to touch it with my hands." That was all he said, though it did feel a bit awkward. Just talking about these things, it didn't seem proper to him. "I just want to know why, why do I feel this." He wrapped his arms around his own body and whimpered lightly again. He felt so awkward about all of this. But what else was he supposed to do right now. RYUU YAMAMOTO

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[RYUU YAMAMOTO]

We were the fire on the moonlit skies

It was at this point in time that Ryuu was running out of things he could say to comfort his cousin. Fuck. He was supposed to be the older and wiser cousin of the two...somebody people could go to for advice about things. However, he was steadily starting to lose his mind as to what else he could say to make it all right. Ryker seemed to adamant that he wasn't in love with the guy, that he couldn't love a guy that he wasn't sure what he could even say to make everything better. His own realization that he liked guys wasn't as...panicked as Ryker's was. He didn't recall who the first male was in his male attraction list...but he took it fairly well...he didn't care either way. He still liked girls and breasts...so everything was alright in his book. He apparently just thought guys had nice asses...or something. He didn't know what really attracted him to guys, though. He wasn't really sure why he was in love with Silvia, but he was...and he wouldn't change it for anything else. He couldn't pinpoint the exact reason why he loved Silvia...he pretty much just liked everything about her.

Ryuu sighed heavily, leaning back in his chair and staring at the white ceiling of his kitchen. He really wanted a drink right now. Maybe a smashed Ryuu could give better advice and make Ryker stop freaking out. "It...works fine...or so I've heard," growing up with a single mother who had a love for the yaoi, he'd walked in one too many times of her watching yaoi or finding those types of things through her searches on the internet...so he knew very well how that worked. Definitely awkward. He was sort of glad Silvia wasn't a guy...very awkward. He fidgeted slightly in his chair, getting up for a moment as he went to grab a wine glass from the cupboard and then the unopened bottle of wine in the fridge. He had been saving it for dinner later with Silvia...but he definitely needed a drink. "Tell me one thing - why can't you love a guy? Does it really matter what sex they are, as long as you love them? I'm pretty sure I'd feel the same way about Silvia either way..." he'd already gone through half of his glass and he snorted slightly, refilling it before putting it back in the fridge.

Ryker wanted to know exactly why he felt like that, and gave himself an alternative to Ryuu's whole "punching him in the dick," thing...but that was besides the point. Hadn't Ryuu explained that it was completely normal? Or something. "You'll figure out why you're attracted to this guy one day...but for the most part, attraction can't always be explained. I could give you a list of things I love about Silvia, but I couldn't tell you why exactly those things make me feel the way about her that I do...it's human nature to want human contact." Ryuu eventually stated, not really sure what he was saying anymore. He wanted more to drink, but he also didn't want to get drunk while Ryker was still around.... So he resisted the urge to want to drink more and decided to slowly drink the wine....he would have to drink more later...and go out and buy more. Something stronger.

Tags; Ryker
Word Count; 5
Notes; Ryker's driving Ryuu to drink. xD And he's just as bad as his mother when it comes to relationship advice.

BY AERIE OF GANGNAM STYLE

[RYKER REESE]

Never really stayed in one place Maybe that's the way it should be Ryker didn't want to deal with this anymore then his cousin did, but the feelings were real. The emotions were real, so very real he had no idea what to do with them. And he probably never would. For this moment he felt that things were not going to end in his favor, since he needed to figure things out in his own way. He only wished he could figure out his own thoughts. Why did Ryker have to like someone he barely knew. It wasn't like he was trying to get the attention or anything, he just felt something weird about this guy. And he couldn't quite get it figured out. The idea of having feelings for someone like this was so lost on him it seemed. He could possibly tell he might be frustrating his cousin. But Ryker wasn't so easy going with this. Ryker didn't have a mom who was all about yaoi manga. If she found out who knew what she'd say. And he didn't want to disappoint her either. That would be worse then anything he could get involved in with the Spiaggia. "Does it really?" He paused for a moment, though maybe Alexei wasn't the right choice being gay couldn't be that bad. Ryker was more afraid of what his parents might think. They had ideas, they had there own set choices and him being this way was probably not one of them. Parents were of course supposed to accept the child no matter what. But sometimes things just went too far and they couldn't anymore. That part scared Ryker the most at this point, if it wasn't already obvious by looking at his face. He really didn't want to think about the negative things that could come of it now. Maybe he needed to talk to Alexei again but he wouldn't tell his cousin that. Why bother? He knew Ryuu might not like it very much, and Ryker wanted to keep this little secret to himself for now. If it was possible to manage that. "Well no! But it's not like I know that much about him, he just pinned me in a corner. And that was that, he helped me yea. But besides his name and he works there, I don't know much else. Though...well nevermind." He didn't share the last detail. Alexei almost being naked was awkward enough. It made that whole situation so weird, he'd never been pushed that way. Or he'd managed to get out of those situations before people could push him that way. Usually it worked a little bit better for him that way. This time however he was not so sure. Not as he could and should have been. Apparently things didn't work out as one wished they would. But he'd learn to handle that in his own way somehow. For now Ryker wanted to keep his mouth shut. Keep from spilling other things he shouldn't. He didn't need to let people know the feelings welling up that he didn't know how to comprehend. "I guess so. If you think that way, but I don't know. I doubt he'd like me anyway, he seems the type to just do things to do them. So it's pointless to feel anything with that. But whatever you keep insisting this is normal, so fine I'll believe you for now." He was giving in, but he also felt like something was tugging at him. Pulling at the heart strings might not be so metaphorical anymore. He could already tell he was probably annoying his cousin so maybe he should go. His cousin was drinking after all, so that was something Ryker didn't like. "I should go..." He said, he didn't want to act like a kicked puppy but for Ryker it seemed to just happen anyway. Even if there was no reason for it to happen. RYUU YAMAMOTO

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[RYUU YAMAMOTO]

We were the fire on the moonlit skies

Ryker was obviously rather worried about a lot of things when it came to liking this guy he liked. Ryuu figured that it was a mixture of pressure from his parents, the fact that he barely knew the guy, and just in general worry. Ryuu didn't know if Ryker had ever had a relationship before, despite being almost a legal adult. It was cute, almost that he hadn't. Even Ryuu, who had so obviously been head over heels for Silvia while he was in high school and a teenager had dated before between high school and college. The jealousy of his girlfriends, their lack of knowledge about the mafia, but mostly their jealousy were usually want drove Ryuu to either break up with them or for them to break up with him. Most of the time, he really didn't sulk over the fact he'd been broken up with, or he'd just dumped his girlfriends. He'd actually attempted to date a male when he'd first entered college...but despite some of the attraction he had to the male sex, it hadn't really worked out at all. Granted, that 'fling' had been after a particularly bad breakup and he wanted nothing more to do with dating women after that for awhile. Granted, he probably just should have accepted at that point that he was in love with Silvia.

Ryuu gave a sigh, trying to think of what else he wanted to say. "Perhaps, the best thing...right now, is for you to try to get to know him?" he suggested thoughtfully, tilting his head lightly. "And then try to figure out your own feelings from there?" Ryuu didn't want his cousin plunging into his first relationship and it turning out badly, but he also didn't want to leave him in the lurch with bad advice. Who knows who he might go to next for advice, hopefully not his mother. He could imagine her advice to her nephew...and it wasn't a pleasant though. While Ryuu was suggested the milder version of getting to know him, he was fairly certain his mother would just tell him to try having sex with him once and then seeing where it went from there. That always seemed to work, at least in her book. Granted, her first time had also lead to him and her getting married...so it wasn't /that/ bad of advice, given her own circumstances. In retrospect, the advice she'd given him had been based on her own experiences and how his father had done it.

"I can't tell you how to feel, and you can't always be in control of your feelings about people...and I don't want a first relationship for you to end badly..." Ryuu stated quietly, putting aside his glass for the time being. He felt bad, mostly for himself, since he was already dipping into the alcohol and he really didn't need to be doing that at the moment, especially in front of his young cousin. "You don't have to go...yeah, I did have a drink...but this is the first time I've had a conversation with somebody like this and I have absolutely no clue what to even say...and I feel like I'm just giving you bad advice...I apparently take after my mother, in that respect.." he admitted casually, a small coloring of red appearing in his cheeks and standing out amongst the blue of his hair. "I'm sorry I couldn't be much help...butt if you do need somebody, I am here." he leaned forward a moment and ruffled Ryker's hair for a moment, almost like an older brother would for a younger sibling. "I'm not much help...but I'll go with you and I dunno...chaperon if you want to go talk to him again."

Tags; Ryker
Word Count; 619
Notes; Ryuu dated a guy once or twice. Interesting. But unsurprising because he is bisexual.

BY AERIE OF GANGNAM STYLE

[RYKER REESE]

Never really stayed in one place Maybe that's the way it should be He had so many reasons to worry, so many reasons to figure out things. Ryker's own emotions made this a bigger struggle, and he honestly had no idea how to understand. What was he supposed to do, trying to make matters work? He was not sure how he felt about guys, or any of this. This did not make him feel better, but Ryuu was trying. He knew that much. But Ryker still felt that his stresses were threatening to get to him again. It already made him feel slightly strange. The boy didn't know what to say, Ryker tried to control his emotions. For at least Ryuu's sake. Anything to help him. After all he had gone out of his way to tell Ryker some advice. Or help him even. "Ryuu...I mean, I guess. I don't entirely know how getting to know him will work out very well. But it can't hurt to honestly try." That was all he said, this was probably not going to end up improving matters for him. For now he'd have to make the best of this. Maybe getting to know Alexei wouldn't hurt too badly. Or so he hoped. But of course those things might not matter so long in the future days. That he already knew. What could he end up doing right now? This already made him feel so strange, he barely knew what to say. Ryker tried to relax, he tried to find some sense of self. Honestly that was all he could do. What was he going to say. Other then trying to get to know Alexei. After he ran off it would not be surprising if Alexei wanted nothing to do with him honestly. That would be the thing he'd wait for. "I just wonder what might happen if I really like him? I mean seriously, this is just how...I wish to figure out what I want. I know I think I like him, but Ryuu what if I mess up." He said with a small sigh, this was already so weird. He did not wish to deal with these things. Honestly he didn't like the idea of hurting someone. Alexei being a stranger or not wasn't important now. It seemed to have stopped being important long ago anyway. "I guess so, it's so weird though. If you say so Ryuu, I just feel bad for putting you through this. I can't exactly tell mother though. She'd end up pushing me into weird things." He did not want that, it was already so strange. And of course he'd have to tell her eventually. Even if it'd probably not do a thing. Yea he didn't want to see that either. But what was he supposed to do? This already made him feel so awkward. The tension wanted to drive right through his body again didn't it. Ryuu was always trying to help him, and that made him feel a lot better. "I want you to come with me Ryuu I'm scared still. What if he tries to hurt me? You'll come with me then, thank you." He said that with a small laugh, he was trying to relax too much. Though it'd probably not end up helping at all right now. Anyway. Or so he thought. RYUU YAMAMOTO

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