Early Morning (Sebby)

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Waking up this morning had been really hard on the rain guardian. His body ached from treatment the night before, and he couldn't keep anything down. But as a father Gabriel couldn't let his kids notice. So he forced his body up even if he was wobbly. He hoped the children were still asleep, he didn't need them to wake up. It'd make him feel so horrible if his kids saw how weak he was right now. The medicine would help him a little bit or so he thought. Always having to be careful so his kids never noticed made things stressful for him. Once his body was finally out of bed, he spent at least an hour setting out and taking his medication. Forcing them down his throat after eating something small. Gabriel's body couldn't handle a lot, his stomach was still sensitive thanks to those meds he was on. And it made things harder. He had to pretend to eat if his kids were around. Anything to keep them from noticing what he was feeling. Or how horrible his hospital visit had made him feel. He put on a thin shirt, and turned the AC on. Hoping it would cool him down, he didn't need the kids to worry. Gabriel set out the food, and started to make lunches for the kids.

They needed to get off to school in time, even with how crappy he felt. This was all about the kids and he would not change his mind. He only set out the lunches and stopped for a moment to go wake the children. He leaned down and kissed the children, shaking his ten year old awake. Then he went to the other two covering up a small cough as he picked the six year old and five year old up. Letting them rest on his shoulders while he took them to the kitchen. They could get dressed later, Gabriel needed to get Marcell off to school first. That child had to take the bus today since Gabriel didn't feel well enough to take him to school. But he knew if he got that puppy face from his child he wouldn't be able to refuse. Good thing that he could convince him to take the bus and he'd pick Marcell up after school. "Sophie, let go of my arm okay. Papa needs to make you breakfast and I need my arms for that." He set the small girl down and smiled as she settled in the chair to bother her brothers.

He felt really horrible right now but he tried his best to mask it. Cooking breakfast for the children he would quickly finish it and set it out in front of them. He coughed again and leaned over the sink. His stomach twisted, and he couldn't wait for the meds to kick in already. The fact that he already knew the signs might be a bit obvious. He tried to hide them with anything he could. Most would be blamed on lack of sleep, and when his hair started to thin he knew how to deal with it. There were ways to cover that up at least while he worked. Since he knew he needed to get money for his children, at least being where he was right now his hair hadn't started to thin or fall out yet. "Eat up. The bus will be here soon." He knew he needed to drop the younger children off there was no way he could get out of that today.

Trying to rely on the coffee to wake him up a little bit, he was sipping at it. He didn't want to agitate his stomach further though he probably would. He still felt way too hot for this. Gabriel moved back over to the lunches and started making separate ones for each child. Peanut butter and jelly for Marcell, Sophie and her brother liked to have ham and cheese, or peanut butter and banana. Which sounded weird to him but if it got his kids to eat he wouldn't complain. He looked back at them and sighed. "Go on and finish eating, Lunch is already made and the clothes are set out for both of you, Sophie and Liam." He knew he might have to help them but once they went off to school he'd be fine. He could rest till work called him. If they did at all. He knew he had to teach today but his body hated that idea.

He groaned again as he started to pack up the lunches. He felt really dizzy as he moved to find his spot at the table leaving the lunches half packed. He seemed so tired, but he had to hide it for the children. When he heard the door knob turning he got up to finish the kid's lunch. His exhaustion that had been written all over his face was erased. Or at least he thought he erased it, but Sebastian wasn't blind.

SEBASTIAN ORSINI

"Spare me

the details."

made by CAPTAIN of GANGNAM STYLE

[SEBASTIAN ORSINI]

This time you gotta take it easy.

This morning was an early start for one Sebastian Orsini. Though to say that things didn't normally start out early for him would have been a lie. Every morning, just as this one, he'd crawl out of bed. Spend a few hours practicing his violin and finishing up any homework he hadn't finished the night before then he'd prepare for his day with the usual methods of hygiene. Cleanliness was important to having good health after all and it was important to him to remain in good health. After all, he was no good to anyone sick himself and he certainly didn't want to end up in the same boat that his father had. That was for certain. So it was with that in mind that Sebastian continued his daily routine. Showering and then spending a short while on making sure that his hair would cooperate with him after he dried and styled it. Pulling on a white-button up and a blue and black striped tie. Then his slacks and tossing his jacket onto the back of a chair before he prepared to leave.

All in all Sebastian felt his life was rather comfortably routine for now. He dealt with things when he had to for the Vindice, but on his own time he was the good student he'd always been and the hard worker that most knew him to be. It was a good life really, he couldn't have complained over any of it. Especially not since being part of the Vindice had brought a great number of good things and people to his life. One of those people being his good friend Gabriel. The man was two years his senior yet already had a great deal more in his life than Sebastian. He had, more or less, the thing that Sebastian wanted for himself and admired in this man. A loving family, even if his wife was not there, it was still a perfectly happy little family in his eyes.

Like every morning it was that very family that Sebastian would visit. He had grown attached to them really, all of them, so it was a part of his day that he really did look forward to the most. Sebastian smiled as he thought about them and he decided then that it was time to head over. He knew well that it was about time to get the kids up and off to school so he grabbed his things, shoving them into his bag, and picking up his jacket and violin case. Moving out to his car and piling them carefully into the trunk before he got in and drove himself down to Gabriel's home. Sure, he could have walked or otherwise, but Sebastian had this thing about always having his vehicle nearby. Maybe it felt like a safety net in a way, but no matter he parked in his usual place outside of the home and he climbed out.

Heading up to the house and taking hold of the door knob. He didn't even hesitate in opening the door and stepping inside. Carrying just his bag and his jacket inside as he made his way through the home. He'd been there enough times that he didn't even seem to startle them anymore when he came over anymore. It was almost as they expected it at this point and as he rounded into the kitchen area he gave them all warm and affectionate smile. Yes, he truly was attached to them all. Maybe a little more than he could admit aloud. "Good morning, " He would chime in a sing-song tone of voice the way that he always did. Moving over to the table first to place his things over one chair and lean down to greet each of the children with a smile and gentle hug.

"Good morning Marcel, Sophie, Liam. " he would state their name in affectionate acknowledgement as he hugged each of them. Then he would make his way over to Gabriel, "Gabe." Smiling all the while, that is until he reached the other man, and got a better look at his features. His own smile drawing to a momentary look of worry. His heart feeling as if it sank a little at the sight of that exhaustion in the man's eyes. No matter how hard he tried he couldn't hide that from Sebastian. Not only did he have a sort of sixith sense about these things. Sebastian paid enough attention to Gabriel and knew him well enough to know when he wasn't feeling at his best emotionally or physically. This was clearly one of those times and while he didn't know the truth depth of the reasoning behind it he just sighed softly.

Honestly, Gabe always seemed to over do it when it came to his own well being and his family. The man just loved them so much and it was part of the reason he'd become so attached to Gabe himself. Sebastian moved to Gabe then, taking the lunches and sliding them away from Gabe, then hooking his arm and pulling him toward the table. "You've done enough this morning, Daddy." he teased a little. "Spend time with the kids before they go off to school. I'll finish this. " He told him with a smile. It was more of a command than a suggestion, but he put on that sugar coating for the sake of the children.

He'd then move himself back to the counter to finish the children's lunches. Making them the way that each child liked, or rather finishing them as Gabe had already done most of the work for him, but each finished up with an extra loving touch from him. "Sophie, Liam, I want to take you both to school this morning. How does that sound? " he stated as he approached the table again with their lunches in his hand. Handing Marcell's to his first since he'd be off to catch the bus soon himself. Holding the other two in one hand and placing the other on Gabe's shoulder as he leaned to him and gave him a smile, "I'll take good care of them. You can get some extra rest and be read to play when they get home. Right ?" he stated looking to the kids with a brighter smile.

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Gabriel tried to focus on getting better, he needed to heal or it'd only get worse. At least that was what he thought. However he'd rather not think much about it. The kids needed to be taken care of, he needed to get both of the younger ones dressed. And send his older child off to the bus. Maybe he'd get most of it done before a certain guest decided to grace them with his presence. Not that it was a bad thing. He liked this guy coming over, it had always helped him. Liam and his sister Sophie were fighting, each child holding a clump of the other child's hair and tugging on it. It only made Gabriel frustrated. He had to remember they were children but still. Couldn't they make one day easy for him. To wish that was not uncommon when he felt this bad. "Come on you two stop it. We want to behave when Sebby comes over right?" He asked without looking back at them. The kids would probably agree, they liked it when Sebby came over. But of course he'd rather not remember why he really needed Sebby today. Gabriel never asked people for help, it never ended well for anyone. He only looked over at the door hearing that familiar car coming up to the house. At least this would be okay, he was finally here. Which would give Gabriel unwanted time to relax.

This had become a daily routine almost. Sebastian coming over to help him whenever he wanted to. Or whenever he could. Really Gabriel could use the help however he felt bad. Almost like he might be taking advantage of the guy but no one needed to know that. He grumbled then only gave a small yawn before smirking in Sebastian's direction. "Taking your sweet time again? Did you meet a pretty girl." He teased, even if he felt like crap he'd still end up teasing Sebastian to no end. It was always so much fun to him, though he had to be a bit careful with the children around. He didn't need them picking up his habits since not all of them were good. But those ones were left hidden and unspoken. Gabriel wanted some coffee but he didn't drink any, he knew his body might reject so he only seemed to grumble. He did hope that Sebastian would avoid making a comment. If only for this time, the kids weren't calm but they weren't depressed. And he didn't need them to worry either.

The dark circles under his eyes were very faint as he glanced up at the other male. "W-what? But I want to finish...I'm fine seriously." He sighed, but sat down at the table. Taking Sophie into his lap and playing with her hair. He felt like crap but he'd keep it down for the kids. Or at least magically attempt to. It'd be fine for him, or at least that was what he thought. He nuzzled his little girl and only seemed to cling to her. Of course Sebastian was the only one he allowed to help him. But no one else he needed to know that. Sebby was going to take them to school? Well maybe that would be good for Gabriel. He needed rest after all. Sleep had been hard enough for him to get lately. But it didn't stop anything really. He still had to take care of his kids, and his friends. And keep everyone happy.

The kids looked up at Sebby and got all excited. They didn't mind getting a ride from Sebby. "Yes let's go! Sebby is taking us to school!" The younger kids ran off into the bedroom now to get dressed. The kids were always good for Sebby it seemed. But he didn't care, Gabriel got up to hug Marcell, and send him off to the bus as it pulled up outside. One child down, two to go. And it didn't make him feel any better. "Ugh...I'll rest but I'm going with you to drop them off." He said with that stubborn tone he always had. He would give into one thing but not the other, he didn't need that much rest.

SEBASTIAN ORSINI

"Spare me

the details."

made by CAPTAIN of GANGNAM STYLE

[SEBASTIAN ORSINI]

This time you gotta take it easy.

    Sebastian didn't honestly mind when the children acted out in his presence. he knew that children would be children, but he knew that they were smart enough kids to know when enough was enough too. Gabe had never once asked Sebastian for help, but did he really need to? No. Sebastian could tell when he needed it and when he didn't and either way he was always there to be a helping hand. It wasn't trouble for him, no, it was actually benefiting him too. It made him feel some sense of purpose even when the Vindice didn't need him for anything important. Besides, it was something he enjoyed really, being part of their world even if he'd more or less intruded upon theirs at first.

    At least it seemed they'd grown to like having him around and for that he would always be grateful. Even if he wasn't related to any of them or married to anyone in their family, they were still family to him, the children and Gabe both. Honestly, Sebastian just couldn't understand why their mother didn't see what she was missing. Sebastian didn't honestly think he could get through his day without seeing Gabe and the kids. Their happy faces were all that he needed really. Was it strange to think that way? Perhaps, but he couldn't help it. If Gabe had ever let on that he felt bad about Sebastian's help he would have earned himself a smack upside the head. Sebastian would have told him to stop being stupid because it made him happy to be able to help Gabe.

    Gabe was special to him and he was sure he'd always look out for the man. There were many reasons that Sebastian had silently begun judging everyone that tried to get close to gabe. Though of course he kept that protective nature rather quiet for obvious reasons. That small yawn had him laughing warmly, " Did the kids wear you out last night?" He teased a bit himself. Though his face gained a tinge of color at the teasing Gabe gave in return, "You know very well I don't actively go looking to meet women. " He grumbled a little himself, "I was getting in a little violin practice this morning. I would have been here sooner otherwise." Though he gave Gabe a warm and teasing smile, "Did me being later make you miss me too much? " Though he teased back and forth with Gabe often he was very careful to keep it toned down while the children were around. He didn't want any of them picking up his bad habits either. As long as Gabe and his kids were happy Sebastian felt all was right in the world, but he had no idea just how wrong he was right then.

    "I'm sure you are, but I enjoy doing this. Just let me finish it." he stated giving him a sort of silently scolding look. Though he didn't show it too obviously. Sebastian was relatively good at making sure that the children didn't pick up on these subtle gestures between him and Gabe. It was for the best that they didn't worry themselves over whether or not their dad was too tired to play with them. He didn't want their feelings getting hurt, besides, if Gabe was tired he would be able to rest while the kids were out and be rejuvenated by the time they were home. So it wasn't a terrible thing for him to relax. Sebastian smiled still as he silently made those lunches and when he approached the table with them at last he seemed just as happy about being able to take the kids to school.

    It warmed his heart, truly and deeply, when the children got excited about him being there or taking them places. It made him feel like he had a place in their hearts and it fulfilled a part of his life that he wouldn't have gotten otherwise. God save anyone that ever tried to lay a finger on any of the people in this house. He wouldn't rest until he saw them wiped out of existence for harming any of them for sure. Sebastian would always be there for them no matter how old and withered he got as they all grew older. Sebastian laughed as the children excitedly ran off to get dressed and he watched as Gabe sent Marcell off to school. They were good kids really, he'd seen some terrible children before, but Gabe had done a great job at raising his kids so it was only natural that they were great themselves.

    As the other two were off getting dressed he turned to look to Gabriel with more concern written upon his features. Though as far as he knew Gabe was just tired, so he wasn't too worried yet, for now at least. He sighed heavily then laughed a bit, "Very well, but when we get back home you're going right to bed if I have to push you into it and sit on you to keep you there. " Sebastian laughed a bit as he moved closer to Gabe. Noticing the dark circles under his eyes and his hand rose to brush against Gabe's cheek, grazing his thumb lightly beneath one of his eyes, "How long have you been staying up with them? You look like you haven't been sleeping much at all. "Though his hand withdrew and he looked toward the children as he heard them running back into the room and he smiled warmly. He waited for Gabe to get what he needed to and pulled his own messenger bag over his shoulder. Leading them out to the ol' wagon as Sebastian liked to call it. It was a rather endearing vehicle really. He might have driven his own, but it was simply easier to drive the one that was more suited for the children. His little ford escort could have fit them, but not as comfortably. Comfort was important when it came to children, at least in sebastian's opinion, so he headed over to their car. Helping to get them settled in their seats and buckled in. He refused to go anywhere without making sure they were properly in the vehicle.

Sebastian got in then and adjusted the seat and mirror to suit his own frame. Placing his bag in the floor behind his seat then he smiled to Gabe. Waiting for him to do the same before he'd pull out of the drive and onto the street. Sebastian was a very proper driver when the children were in the car. He drove the speed limit and obeyed all the road rules even if he didn't always when he drove alone. Either way they got there in a timely manner and with enough time to drop the kids off and with a minor discussion he agreed to take Gabriel to pick up some medications. So he was under the impression that Gabe was just suffering some sort of existing cold which wouldn't really surprise him. Given the fact that Gabe hardly ever rested when it came to his kids. So him ignoring a cold was rather typical, but it made Sebastian all that more determined to get some medicine in him and get him back in bed where he belonged right then.

"I'll go in and pick it up for you if they'll let me. So when we get there you just take it easy okay? " he stated as he reached over with one hand giving Gabe's hand a gentle squeeze. Smiling then as he returned his hand to the wheel.

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Gabriel was truly pleased with the break, he needed it. But he didn't show it as much. He'd rather not hurt his children's feelings because he felt really bad. So he would have to remember this, he did need rest to play with his children later. Unless he could get Sebastian to distract them. It still seemed rude in his opinion though, anyone who wasn't his children wouldn't get this. But his kids and those puppy faces. He'd have a hard time saying no anyway even if he was exhausted later too.

The drugs he took on a daily basis and his children, both of those things exhausted him. Unlike other people on Chemo he didn't have all day to rest. So he was up and about when his body was tired. He refused to let his exhaustion get to him but it still happened sometimes. Like today. The children seemed so excited to get dressed and go to school. It was good to see the change from when they didn't want to school. Seeing his kids cry bothered him a lot, when he knew it was for something like school.

He figured this would be alright, let his kids do what was needed. They had to get off to school after all, and he knew right now they didn't need his help. Not right now, those children were slowly growing up. He almost didn't like that though. The older they got the more he realized he might miss things if he didn't get better. But Gabriel shook those thoughts off and smirked. He had to listen to Sebby now, since he was speaking. "Hah you wish, oh really? So there's no girl. Maybe it's a cute boy?"

He said with a small laugh, this didn't bother him really. It was the two of them playing around. Which always sounded like a lot of fun to him. For some reason teasing Sebastian was so easy, he didn't have any negative feelings towards it. "Sure I totally missed you, but fine you want to finish the lunches then you can do it. I feel like just watching anyway." It was a bit of a lie but no one needed to know that stuff. What would it do anyway.

Gabriel wanted to be able to do things on his own. But he wasn't a miracle worker, he already tried to do everything on his own and it didn't work. Not at all. This made him feel a bit strange. Knowing he had given up control for one day to let Sebby help. One child off to school made him feel as if he could relax a little more now. He didn't have the energy to be upset and yet it was still there. He looked at Sebby once the kids were off to get dressed. He waited to hear the lecture, or hear something. Sebastian wasn't likely to let him get away with these things even when he wanted to. That was how it went.

"Ugh fine, I'm not that tired though so you don't need to sit on me. Sophie hasn't been sleeping by herself for the past week or so. Her nightmares I guess...It doesn't matter though." He seemed to be talking about this in a vague way. He didn't know why but he couldn't explain that his medications were keeping him up. His daughter did have nightmares but that wasn't all of it.

Gabriel forced his body to accept a drink of water, and he would not let it go away. He had to finish this water, and with that he would grab his wallet, his keys and the medicine papers. He didn't let anyone see those so they were quickly tucked into his pocket. He coughed slightly before settling in the car and leaned the seat back a little bit. He truly was tired, he could feel it now. More then he could before. He said good bye to his kids when they got to the school and ignored the comments they made about how he should sleep.

He knew that, he already had Sebastian breathing down his neck about that. The trip to the pharmacy was planned, he thought he'd do it himself but now he had Sebby with him. "Fine...I can get it myself, but you won't let me. Hurry up I hate these places." He was being pushy, and he wanted Sebby out of the car. His stomach was starting to twist again from medicine, and perhaps being nervous. Sebby getting his meds made him nervous for some reason.



SEBASTIAN ORSINI

"Spare me

the details."

made by CAPTAIN of GANGNAM STYLE

[SEBASTIAN ORSINI]

This time you gotta take it easy.

   Sebastian had only said such a thing so that the children wouldn't worry about why their dad was tired in general. Sometimes kids just didn't understand how draining it was on adults to try to keep up with them all day long and take care of all of their needs ontop of dealing with other people's children. Which reminded him, he needed to suggest Gabe maybe getting a substitute for him, so that he could catch up on much needed rest. It wouldn't kill him to miss a day of classes to regain his energy. That's the way that Sebastian saw it though he doubted that he'd have an easy time convincing Gabe of that. He'd wait until after the kids were dropped off to talk about that though.

He was happy at least that the children seemed excited about going to school today. It was much less trouble for Gabe when they behaved well and much less work for everyone when they willingly got themselves together. He was rather proud of that fact. Sebstian knew that the kids weren't his, but in some way he still felt proud like a parent whenever they seemed happy. It also made him feel happy for Gabe too because, lets face it, he liked seeing Gabe happy. Even if the man was to stubborn to show it often. He always enjoyed watching him smile and laugh with his children. There was just something warm in that man's heart that had made Sebastian attentive to him in the first place.

He was a good friend, a good father, and a good man in general. Even if he hid some of those facts behind that wall of his, but he couldn't blame him really. Though when the teasing continued over getting slowed down by a girl and now a boy? "Honestly..." he groaned with a roll of his eyes though he laughed. Smiling to Gabe almost impishly then, "What do I need a cute boy for when I get to look at you all day? " He mused lightly. Touching his own cheek as he gave a dramatic day dream sort of gesture though he started laughing shortly after.

It was fun, these moments, at least to Sebastian. He loved that he could laugh and mess around with Gabe this way. Especially when he seemed more serious in other circumstances. "Good. It's about time you let me have my way." he stated as he finished making those lunches himself. Humming softly while he did, just seeming happy in general, he was happy after all.

Sebastian would never have a doubt in the fact that Gabriel could do things alone. The fact of the matter was that sometimes, even though he could do them on his own, it wasn't a terrible thing to get help in doing them. Sebastian believed in Gabe's abilities a great deal,as a man of Vindice, as a teacher, as a man in general and a father to three wonderful children. He was more than just a father he was a dad and there was a lot that went into saying such a thing.

Right on cue he'd went right into that brief demand. It might have been his way of lecturing Gabe, but it was only because he cared in the first place. Sebstian smiled brightly, "I think you're more tired than you realize, but we'll debate that later once I've got you in bed. As for Sophie, it's hard to say, have you tried asking her about it? If she's having nightmares talking to her might help figure out a way to help her get past them." he stated thoughtfully for a moment. Though he was distracted by the reappearance of the children.

Shortly after they were off so it was a conversation that would have t continue once the kids were off to school. It didn't take long to get there and for their goodbyes to be said and he smiled all the while. Wishing them a good day as he watched Gabe say his goodbyes to them for the time being. The pharmacy wasn't that far away either and once they'd arrived he parked the car. Unbuckling himself without really even waiting for Gabe's answer on the matter before he had started to do so. "You're right. I won't be long. " He stated with a smille as he took hold of the papers. "Just relax a little while i'm in there. You're starting to worry me." he stated as he smiled a bit with that worry. Though he got out of the car then.

Taking his bag with him and heading inside. He exhaled heavily once he was inside. honestly, he was worried. In the months he'd been in this routine he'd noticed subtle change after subtle change. Gabe just seemed to be wearing thinner and thinner, so to speak, but he couldn't figure out if it was stress or what. It worried him a great deal more than he'd like to admit. It occurred to him then really. What did Gabe even need medicine for? Did he have a cold ? If so then why didn't he just ask for his help? Was he honestly that stubborn ? who was he kidding, of course he was, but seriously!

Sebastian felt a little frustrated as he made his way to the counter. Handing over the papers and telling them the information that they needed. Then he waited for them to get those things he was there for and once he'd got them he started for the doors again. Though he made a small sound as his fingertips felt an usual shape. Was that...was that a needle? His heart began to pound into his throat, he quickly looked into the bat, and sure enough it was. What was this? Had he developed diabetes? If he had why hadn't he said anything? No, he didn't see insulin in the bag at all. He fumbled through the bag finding the sheets on the medicine and his face went pale after a few moments of reading them.

Sebastian felt his entire body tingling as everything seemed to grow silent. He barely even realized he'd started moving again until he was back in the car. Sitting in the seat after he'd handed over the medicine. his fingers were quivering as he gripped tightly on the steering wheel and he stared ahead of him as if he were trying to hold himself together at that point. he held his smile though the grip on the steering wheel had his knuckles growing white until the tension released and Sebastian moved then.

he turned his body in his seat and he crawled over the center to get to Gabe. His hands sliding to either side of Gabe's face and he pressed his lips over Gabe's and the trickled light of his flame glittered itself between their lips as he tried to pass that healing kiss of his over Gabe. His own fingers still trembling as he silently prayed that somehow, somehow, it wouldn't be as bad as he was now thinking that it was. That he'd just misunderstood, that his kiss would heal this man, that it wouldn't be something he couldn't take away.

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He would refuse the help, he didn't need someone to take care of his class. Or at least that was what he thought. Right now he knew his body wasn't handling the cancer drugs very well. But as if it was going to do him any good. Right? Perhaps he'd rather shrug it off. Gabriel knew he had a lot of things going on, a lot of things going through his mind right now. Which probably wasn't the best either. He only wanted to get today over with, rest sounded so nice to him. And so did other things. However he'd rather not comment on it. What was he going to say? He couldn't exactly explain how it made him feel. Not to his friend. Sebastian didn't need to get hurt now did he, what was he going to say. For a small moment it brought up weird emotions. Things he'd rather not think about. The children were all off to school, so at least he'd be able to relax. For at least a little while. However he didn't know what he was going to be able to truly do. What could he do to keep his friend off of the trail. Cancer had never been easy to handle, but that wasn't the point right now. It wouldn't be.

Yet he didn't know what to say, the male leaned back into his seat and yawned. He wondered what he was going to say. He didn't even have a clue about what to do. Right now he knew his friend had to figure it out soon enough. "Haha right, me all day. I'm not that amazing or anything." He was not going to care, right now he didn't need to. This had all become a teasing game even if he felt horrible. His illness was starting to fade away at least slightly. And he'd rather ignore it. For a small moment he wondered if hiding his sickness was a bad idea. But he couldn't let his work or his kids find out. They'd only get hurt or worry about him. Which he didn't want. Sebastian still was quite amusing to him, it did make him laugh at the thought. But what was he going to do. He barely knew what to say at this point or where it'd even go. "Yea only for now." He mumbled as he yawned, this was not going to make his day even better. He felt worn out.

Like if he wanted to he'd pass out right in this seat. Not that anyone would blame him. The kids were gone already after all. He felt that sleep might do him a lot of good. He knew that Sebastian had a point but it didn't mean he wanted to accept this. Or end up having to be letting go. It'd probably only end up causing a lot more problems for him. Which was not wanted. He really didn't know what to do about Sophie so he couldn't respond to that. It worried him to even think about those things. What was he supposed to do right now? It made him feel confused, or tired. Like his brain might only start hurting again. Yet he didn't know what he was supposed to do. He yawned and only gave a small nod when the guy left. He'd rest till Sebastian came back. His body was aching now, and it seriously did suck to him. What was he going to say right now, it'd probably not do him any good.

He had no idea what to do when Sebastian came back into the car. He opened his eyes and looked at him, at first glance he could tell something was up. Something was really wrong, and he didn't know what it was. But he could only hope it wasn't what he thought. "Hey what's up?" He asked as he tilted his head. What was he going to say, this confused him a lot more then he liked. He didn't think he knew what would happen next, the sudden kiss it was awkward. But he felt the healing flame and it was making him feel better. Not down to his core, there was no way he'd be able to cure that. He couldn't help, he felt that familiar feeling in his stomach. "E-excuse me..." He opened the door and raced over to the trash can. He barely reached it as he started to vomit. Throwing up all of his stomach contents.

He couldn't move his body to get back into the car, he was too weak for it.

SEBASTIAN ORSINI

"Spare me

the details."

made by CAPTAIN of GANGNAM STYLE

[SEBASTIAN ORSINI]

This time you gotta take it easy.

  Sebastian knew he would refuse, he knew he'd have to fight him one everything really, it was their routine and it was almost comforting in itself. He knew that Gabe needed the help from time to time so he was always there whether he needed it that day or not. It would never be any different, at least not in a lesser sense, he'd only help more. Especially once he learned the truth which was coming sooner than he even realized. Sebastian had never even considered the possibility that the things that were bothering Gabe could be as serious as they were and he certainly never wanted to even think about the idea that he might lose Gabe to something like that ever. Sure, it wasn't like they were lovers or anything, though he couldn't lie and say he hadn't thought about that. However, It still didn't stop him from caring about the man the way that he did.

He pressed his lips together for a moment, blowing raspberries at the air at that statement, "Whatever, you're more amazing than you realize, look at how happy your kids are. What kind of man could bring happiness like that to his kids other than an amazing one? " He questioned with a soft laugh. "Besides, I think you're amazing, and I'm always right." He teased Gabe again as he finished up what he was doing and approached the table with the others. "You should do it more often. I rather enjoy having my way." he stated with a grin. Enjoying being able to tease Gabe the way he did, even when Gabe was tired, it was like second nature between them.

The trip to the kids' school and the trip to the pharmacy wasn't too bad at all. The idle chatter was common, but he was most of all grateful for the fact that Gabe was resting. Even in this small way it was better than nothing and it made him happy. However, that happiness was replaced by something else. A horrible feeling, a knot in his throat, a twisting in his stomach and a sharp ache in his chest. It wall came at the knowledge that he was suddenly faced with. He had to be strong, he had to hold it together. Especially now that he knew, now that he'd realized, now that it all made sense.

The words that had questioned him had been the thread that snapped and while the kiss he'd given was meant to heal there was more hidden within it than that for Sebastian. Though the words that had broken that kiss had his eyes fill with every bit of worry that he felt within. he watched as Gabe stumbled from the car to the nearby trash can and Sebastian's heart sank. He felt like breaking, he felt like crying, but right now Gabe needed him more than ever. Sebastian knew this if he knew nothing else about how to deal with this situation and he was out of the car the moment that he saw Gabe getting sick. he was at his side faster than he'd ever expected to move with that ache stabbing through him and he reached Gabe without hesitation. His hand raising to brush his hair back. Petting his hair more or less as he held his other arm around him to support his weight.

His own stomach could have been made of steel at that point, the sound didn't even bother him anymore, he'd heard it enough growing up that it wasn't something that still effected him as strongly. Not even the smell and besides all of that he wouldn't let it bother him even if it wanted to. Sebastian's body could likely be felt trembling at that point, but his hold was strong. He pressed his face to the back of Gabe's neck as he waited for him to finish throwing up. "You should have told me. " he spoke shakily as he tried to hold back those tears. He swallowed hard and he smiled against his skin sadly, "You're going to be alright. I will take care of you. " he promised.

When he was more sure that Gabe was done getting sick for now he slipped his arms beneath the other man's legs, and pulled him off of them, and he wouldn't listen to any bit of protest against it as he lifted Gabe into his arms. Carrying him back to the car and helping him back into his seat. He pulled his jacket from the back where his bag was sitting once again and he pulled it around Gabe. Buckling him and giving him an affectionate, though sad, smile. His heart ached in his own fear, but he tried not to let it show as much as he felt it.

Sebastian leaned down and pressed his lips to Gabe's forehead, "Let's get you home so you can take your medicine and rest. I'll make the appropriate calls to your work. I'm not letting you out of my sight today." he told the other man. Yes, that meant he too was not going to work or to school. Like hell was he going to right now. At that point he was ready to give up both so that he could spend every moment caring for Gabe. He couldn't give up Vindice and he knew that Gabe couldn't either, but everything else? Everything else was unimportant. All that mattered right now was Gabe and his Kids. Oh god, the kid, did they know?

He closed Gabe's door and went to his own. Getting inside of the car and buckling himself up again. For a moment he looked away so that he could brush his thumb against the corner of his eyes. removing the moisture so that Gabe wouldn't see it then gripping at the steering wheel. Turning the car back on and pulling out of the parking lot. "How long has it been?" he questioned as he lifted one of his hands to brush his hair back briefly. Then lowering it again back to it's place after a small sigh passed his lips.

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This whole situation seemed fine, it had improved greatly or so he thought. And yet he wasn't sure what to do. Gabriel had a lot of things he hadn't told people. Even though he knew he should. What could he say? Listening to Sebastian's words only made him laugh. He had to trust that his family would be well taken care of. Yet he didn't know what to speak about that either. Eventually if his condition got worse he'd have to let it go. And then he'd have to set up arrangements for them. But he refused to give up. ""Yea yea...they were raised pretty well." He barely commented, his energy was starting to fade more now. So he wanted to pass out, maybe that's why his conversation was becoming less and less. He didn't even know how to keep his energy. He felt that Sebby would get angry with him. If only they knew that from here on out Sebby might actually get his way a bit more. What would he say? However right now he wondered what he was supposed to think.

Now the trip to the school and pharmacy had almost gone as planned. Till Gabe realized that Sebastian had seen his medicine. The amount in that bag was not something for a normal cold after all. He should have gotten it himself but too late to back up on that now. Really it was too much for him to handle. He hated this feeling. When everything in his stomach would come back up. And he wished it'd go away. People made him feel weird, he was sure other people were watching. But for now he decided to glance back at Sebby once he finished vomiting. ""I-I'm sorry. That wasn't because of you..." He couldn't take this, all his meds were in that trash can now. Minus the ones in his blood stream, everything else hadn't been properly digested into his body yet. He couldn't focus on this, he should have felt horrible but he was shaky. His body wasn't taking the vomiting any better then it had the pills the first time either. Cancer was never something easy to work through.

He didn't even notice the hands in his hair, some of his hair was thinning again. That was the price of being on chemo, and being sick as he was. A few months he should have lost all of his hair already. But he hadn't because he needed to keep it hidden from his children. Those adorable smiles had to remain no matter how bad he felt on the inside right now. ""I couldn't...my family doesn't know. No one does, I thought it'd be fine. This wasn't as bad." But now it was, he noticed. The way his body hadn't been improving since the chemotherapy started. But it'd only been a few months so that was how it went. He'd have to figure this out later. He wanted to get away from here before people started watching him again. He did feel sick enough, but people didn't need to know that. He leaned into Sebastian. Gabriel usually avoided asking for help but this time he needed to.

His body was light, as if he'd lost a drastic amount of weight since he got sick. He didn't like the idea of being stuck this way. Not at all, it sounded way too horrible for him. He curled up in the jacket, Gabriel was exhausted. All he wanted to do was sleep right now. Sleep for hours sounded really nice for him. How was he going to work through this without making a mistake, or a mess. His stomach had nothing in it to throw up. So anything else would be dry heaving. ""But...It's too late to call in someone to teach for me isn't it. Just...apologize to them for me." He groaned, he knew there was no way he'd get into work. His body was too sick right now.

""Two months...at the most." He felt bad even admitting that, his body wasn't going to take lightly to the treatment from here on out. They'd have to get aggressive to beat his cancer. And he didn't like it but he needed to deal with it. For now at least. He felt like he should have told him sooner. But nothing could change it now.

SEBASTIAN ORSINI

"Spare me

the details."

made by CAPTAIN of GANGNAM STYLE

[SEBASTIAN ORSINI]

This time you gotta take it easy.

 Sebastian didn't mind at all the way that the situation was really. No matter what happened in the future he was certain things would be fine. At least at that point he was sure of it. He didn't know if Gabe realized how much he meant to him or even if he would ever be able to show that particular fact to him, but it didn't matter. Not as long as he was happy and not as long as he was safe. The same went for those kids too. To Sebastian this family was part of his own, even outside of their group, they were still family to him. "You've done a wonderful job." he reassured him with a smile. Though he hardly seemed to put much weight on the fact that the conversation was thinning. He knew that Gabriel was worn out and so he didn't hold it against him. In fact, he encouraged him to rest as much as he could. If Gabriel ever thought there'd be a moment when Sebastian wasn't on his case about his well being he was wrong. Sebastian cared far too much to let Gabriel wear himself thin. Even if it meant that Sebastian had to put in extra effort and take the kids out for a day so that their dad could get the rest he needed.

Sebastian had thought this would be rather routine. Going in to get cold medicine, coming out and going home, tucking Gabe into bed and relaxing while he played a song or two on his violin. Though all of that had changed when he saw that medicine. He didn't care at that point who was watching. If any of them dared to say anything about it he would put them in their place. this was personal and it wasn't any of their business. "I-I-I know. Shh. " he cooed softly as he brushed his hand over Gabriel's hair gently. Feeling how thin Gabriel's hair was made him wonder why he'd not noticed this before? Why hadn't he seen the signs? why hadn't he realized? Was he that stupid? was he that blind? How could he have not known before now?

Sebastian's voice choked in his throat as Gabe spoke those words about his family not knowing, about how he didn't think it was this bad. Sebastian gripped around Gabriel tightly and it took all that was in him not to start crying right then. How could this be happening? How could such a good man and loving father be suffering so much? It wasn't fair. Gabriel was a good man and he shouldn't have to keep suffering the way that life was making him suffer. "It's okay. It's okay Gabriel, i'm here, and I'll help you through this okay? You will get through this. You are strong and I will help you remember that. " he murmured softly to the other.

The weight of Gabriel's body was startling to him. He was so thin, so light, it made his voice choke in his throat again as he struggled to be strong for Gabriel. It was hard enough on him without him having to worry about Sebastian being upset. Sebastian wouldn't do that to him knowingly. Though it was probably very obvious to Gabriel given how well they knew one another. "They will understand. Do not worry about that okay? I will take care of everything, I promise, you just focus on you." he stated as he ran his fingers over Gabriel's hair gently. Trying to sooth him the best he could for that moment. That kiss pressed to his forehead had been placed with such affection.

A small sigh had passed his lips as he closed that door and got in on his side of the car. It was hard to focus on any one thing at that moment. The knowledge of what was going on was almost overwhelming. He felt scared for Gabriel, for the kids, and himself as well. Sebastian wasn't certain how bad the cancer was, but it didn't look like it was good at all. He was going to have to make sure that Gabriel took care of himself. He would have to make sure that Gabriel got the treatments he needed and got better.

"T-two months?" he sputtered as he gripped tighter upon that steering wheel. he'd known for two months and hadn't told him ? Sebastian bit against his lower lip slightly before he spoke quietly, "You could have told me. From now on you tell me everything. Got it? I don't care why you didn't tell me before now, but from now on you tell me? You understand? " he questioned as he rolled his palms on that steering wheel a bit. "I'm going to take care of you. " he stated as he drove.

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Gabriel only thought of different ways to rest, maybe he'd use Sebastian as a pillow. That boy was easy enough to use as a pillow, or so he thought but bringing it up would not likely do anything good. At least that was what he thought. He figured something might get a tad bit awkward. He knew that telling Sebastian about his illness would not make it any better, for all he knew it'd only make it worse. Though that was something he'd rather avoid. Not that he could, with Sebby things were harder. Where as he could get the children to believe him no matter what. Which was partially all that mattered. Yes he wanted to make Sebastian less worried. But exposing his weakness in the form of this illness to him might have been a good thing. Even if he didn't right out talk about it as a good thing. Would people be able to blame him there? It wans't as if he was trying to make things so awkward. All Sebby needed to know was his friend happened to be sick, things happened. It never went very well, and this was where they were. No getting away from it now.

So maybe he had done a wonderful job. Or maybe he hadn't. But really things went out they went and he'd rather not get into it very much. What else could he do? Sebastian knew his body wasn't as healthy as it seemed. Even though it should be. But he didn't like worrying him either. That sounded worse in comparison to everything else right now. No matter how much he'd rather not admit those details. He had his reasons to keep quiet, and not push matters. Cancer was a bad thing a dangerous thing it could hurt a lot of people. But that was not what he was thinking about right now. None of that would matter to him. Not at all. Or so he thought. But what did people care what he thought these days anyway. Right? Gabriel glanced over at Sebastian, wondering if he would really take care of him. The male said he would but would it be wrong for Gabe to doubt. He doubted a lot of things, his own strength. Everything else going through his head.

All of it was filled or at least laced with unwanted doubt. But he never admitted that, as he tried to settle back against Sebastian without worry. Without stress. Without any of that. "I hate hurting this way. It makes me feel weak, diseased...and useless. I hate it, Can we go home now?" He mumbled not wanting to voice his already strange concerns. No doubt no one wanted to hear any of those. At least not this person. Sebastian might be caring, but caring and wanting to deal with that was two different matters entirely. He still felt really bad for keeping him in the dark. Maybe that was not a good idea. But no going back on it now, he'd already gotten involved. Trying to say he hadn't was foolish and stupid. It would never work for him.

The fact that he was never truly feeling well shouldn't be that shocking. He only hoped that Sebastian understood he had never lied to hurt him. He had only spoken or hidden things for his own reasons. If anything to keep people around him safe. His illness was not contagious of course. But it wasn't good, it wasn't a safe disease. It might only end up getting a lot worse for him. That he already knew. But Gabriel would deal with it in stride as he did everything else. Not that people cared how he handled things of course. Those details shouldn't have mattered to anyone right now, and he'd be able to keep it that way for a little while at least. Hopefully. "Fine I just want to go home now..." He was not in the best mood. Things would not be good for him. That was already slowly starting to become slightly obvious and he knew it.

But did Sebastian really know it. He couldn't be certain if that man knew everything. He was sure he knew something but everything. Nah he couldn't know that. It would be way too easy for him to think he knew everything. Though of course he most likely didn't. The kisses were so weird to him but he liked all of them. Sebastian always knew how to make him feel better. He waited to hear someone get mad at him. And really it worried him, but he'd learn to figure it out later. As he always did. "Fine I'll tell you, only because I know I can't avoid it anymore. And I'm tired of keeping this to myself. It's creepy knowing that I have to handle this by myself...I don't like being sick anymore" What was he supposed to do, this already made him feel weird. He wanted to help Sebastian, but what was he supposed to do. He couldn't figure out what do with how to help Sebastian.

Being taken care of was good for him. He only wanted Sebby to stay with him. As long as he could help him without making things worse.

SEBASTIAN ORSINI

"Spare me

the details."

made by CAPTAIN of GANGNAM STYLE